Why am I so concerned with failing?
I have been stressing out about this interview to the EXTREME. Putting pressure on myself that because I'm driving 7 hours away and this is the only interview for me in sight...that I will fail if I don't get the job. But I just had the epiphany that I am not failing if I don't get the job, I am failing right now by having anxiety, low self esteem and overall not trusting God. We put so much importance in the material things like cars and clothes and jobs. That if we don't have nice things, our lives aren't successful. But what is success? I think it is living God's will. Loving God and others and being patient, calm, and humble as He hands you opportunities like the interview I've been given. Showing others that you keep your head held high because God is on your side during what may seem like scary or rough times when everything is uncertain. The only way that I have been failing is by not trusting Him and His plan. If I don't get the job, God promises that His plan is always better than mine. So I know something better is around the corner. I can trust in that because God always works for the good of those who love Him. I am thankful that God reminds me of these things through an epiphany blog post when I am all caught up in "me me me" and trying to do everything myself. Well I know how that ends up: stressed, frustrated, crying and confused. Thank you Jesus for loving me with this ugly anxious heart of mine and turning my eyes toward you.
