Somewhat of a drought.

Man I have so many idols in my life it is ridiculous!!! I would say the two main ones would be technology and boys. By idols I mean these are things that I idolize and think will bring me happiness....things that replace God essentially. The saying, "Don't try to fix your problems and fit God in there too somewhere, but focus on God and everything will fix itself," has been going in one ear and out the other lately. I know that is what I need to be doing, yet I still look to many other things besides God to give me fulfillment in life. I am reading a book called Authentic Beauty and it is mostly about how to grow into a deep, close relationship with God and like focus your life around that closeness. When I read the book I want that relationship with God so badly, but then later I find myself concerned once again with the small, usually not important, worries of life. It is kind of crazy that it is hard for me to draw close to God because when I do...I am never disappointed. I am actually overjoyed. I feel true love in my heart and worthy of love and all good things. Maybe I am sick of experiencing that joy and then losing it time after time by inevitably getting buried in the world. Kind of like I know the high won't last longer than a day, a week, a month, so why have it at all? Or maybe it is because I say I want to draw near to Him, but I don't really. Not as much as I think I do. It's like I need a reason--a real low in my life to really truly seek God. That's the biggest thing I want to work on right there, seeking God everyday for how to live my life, not just calling on him when I am in need. I think the fact that it is Christmas break is motivating this whole post because break is a time to be lazy...not think about anything...but I really need to thank God for this time that he has given me an entire month to seek him with barely any outside distractions like school or jobs. There are a few books I want to read and I also want to dig into my new bible :) Let's hope I learn a little discipline.

Anywayyy, sorry for the "depressing struggle post". Just my thoughts out loud.
:) It's all good.
Katie

My Candle

literally wrote this poem in about 2 minutes about my scented candle that i've come to love in the last 2 days while winter is blustering outside...


a flicker of light
a glimmer of hope
as the darkness creeps in the window
this flame stands in the way
and tells the darkness to step back
for it has things under control
taken care of in here
in this warm place
lighting up my room
lighting up my heart.

Beautiful Skyy!!

"The Palace Girls" had a dance party this past Friday in celebration of the twins 21st bday. I love these girls!!






One thing that I'm discovering I LOOOVE is the beautiful sky!!! (I wish my camera took better pictures! My photos don't really ever do the sky justice). I am in awe of a pretty sky unlike anything else. I have become quite the master of capturing beautiful sunsets on my drives to and from Missouri. I have some other sky pics that I will try and put up later but these are from my drive down to Missouri from Thanksgiving break at around 4pm. Enjoy! :)

Katie

Poetry week day 5 :)

This poem is my interpretation of the picture at the header of my blog. My friend Rachel, had this picture on facebook (It's a professional picture, she didn't take it) and I fell in love with it. Now it is everywhere from my Twitter homepage, to the background screen of my laptop, phone, and blog. I don't think a picture has ever spoken directly TO me like this one has. I. Love. It.


I am silent as I hear the breeze
hush through the trees.
The tall grass
tickles the back of my knees.
I toss my head back
and let the wind have its way with my hair.
I slowly close my eyes
as I escape with the breeze.
Floating away to a place of peace.
Every muscle in my body is relaxed.
And in this perfect moment, I belong to nature.

Katie

I wish I had 7 good poems...

Yellewww folks! Poetry week is put on hold due to I don't have any more poems ready to share...yet! It will continue in the near future though. (Could be tomorrow! but i skipped the weekend and it was bothering me so I had to address it).

Shout out to EEDS who told me about her blog today and shout out to Anna Egeln who is a baby blogger! (just startin out). Can't wait to read your girls' stuff!

11 days till i see my Anna love in sunny Florida! :)

How could finals get me down with such an AMAZING winter break ahead?!

Katie

P.S. just started following C.S. Lewis quotes on twitter!! (LOVE him) soo i'll leave you with this and there will be plenty more of these documented on this blog don't you worry.

In science we have been reading only the notes to a poem; in Christianity we find the poem itself. - C.S. Lewis

Poetry week day 4 :)

Like a volcano
Bubbly, brimming, and overheated
These thoughts will boil under the surface of my mind
Until they erupt on this page
and splatter as they melt away my pen
Anger, confusion, and hurt
Released into the air
To blow away with the ash in the wind
and in this writing, I am free.

Katie

Poetry week day 3 :)

This is how much I want to live in Colorado...

Colorado
Beautiful mountains
Snow capped and wondrous
God is the greatest artist of all time
I'd rather marvel in the beauty of his works in nature
than look at any man made art FOREVER!
Serene lakes and rivers
Crystal clear with decorations of pebbles
Uniqueness.
Cultures of hipsters, coffee shops, and festivals
Scenic beauty and fresh air!


This year I've been learning to discover the beauty in Columbia's nature and unique downtown...but I still dream of Colorado :)

Katie

Poetry week day 2 :)

Storms ring beauty in their darkness,
The sadness and mystery and where it all comes from.
Dreaming of the light on the horizon,
That lighthouse that soothes your soul.
You cling to it and wait for it to disappear
Because the storm's too strong and the light too bright.
You must go back to the mystery of life.

Katie